Tuesday, November 4th - I Thougth of You

I crawled out of bed,
ready and eager for an early morning walk
(I thought of you)

I drank a warm cup of tea
after casting my vote
(I thought of you)

I drove into work,
finding comfort in my morning commute
(I thought of you)

I listened and learned,
building skills to help others in need
(I thought of you)

I prepared dinner,
chatting with Daddy as I sautéed and chopped the chicken
(I thought of you)

I watched as officials counted votes,
witnessing history as my heart filled with hope and joy
(I thought of you)

Would my belly still be full with baby?
Would my heart ache with impatience for your arrival?
Would you already be here, cuddled in my arms?
Who would you have looked like?
Would you have smelled like fresh-baked cookies?

Little one,

These are the things I wondered today; on the day you were due to come into this world.
These are the thoughts I had as I pushed through my day. You are my precious bean that stayed with us for only 6 weeks. Some people would dismiss that short of time, but I remember seeing your little heart beat. Thank you for sharing that with Daddy & me. We both were so excited that day. I sent pictures to the whole family. Everyone was so happy for us, and we all couldn’t wait to meet you. For reasons beyond my understanding this just wasn’t going to be our time for meeting you, though. I know you are with us, and I know that someday, we will snuggle you and love you the way we imagined.

All my love,

Mommy